Blood in my eyes

I want to be more than just a memory

2011-04-15T12:47:00.000-07:00

I don't say "I love you" to get
attention or to make a conversation
I say it to remind you that you're the
best thing that ever happend to me.

you can always say sorry
but the real apology is when you hear the
sadness in their voice , and see the look in their eyes.
and you realize that they hurt themselves just as much.

Sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for,
Then I remember your face, and I'm ready for war.

I miss you.
and i hope you miss me too.
i had never thought that living without you
would be so hard.
i need you in my life,
and i hope you need me too.
i hope you still think of me,
because i still do think of you.
i want our times back
and i hope we get them back, someday.

Sometimes, someone comes into your life, that changes everything.
Raises your standards,makes you laugh, and makes you feel like heaven.
There is something about him that you can't put into
words and he makes you're world complete.
You don't ever want to let him go.

~I dream because there is no other way I can see it happen.
~Nothing will bring back what i have lost

Believe in your own fairytale.

2011-04-15T12:36:00.000-07:00

"I'm sorry I'm not skinny enough so you can see my ribs.

I'm sorry my boobs aren't big enough. I'm sorry I'm not fake.

I'm sorry I'm not pretty.

But most of all, I'm sorry you can't accept me for who I am. "

× I don't run away. I walk slowly waiting untill you come.
× how can you break my heart and tell me still you love me?

How much do I love you...

2011-04-13T05:29:00.000-07:00

I love you . More than I can say in words, more than I could ever understand. More than all the stars in the night sky, more than all the clouds that adorn heaven. More than every single person that exists, or has existed, on this planet. More than the trillions of cells that make up every human body.

More than all of the questions that have ever been asked, and much more than all of the answers that were ever given. More than doubt, more than uncertainty. More than you could ever know, more than you are willing to understand.

More than every glance you have ever given me, more than every stare I have given you. More than all of the hairs on every head, more than all of the pages in every book. More than every second in every minute, in every day, in every week, in every month, in every year.

More than infinity, more than time itself.

More than my heart can contain, more than my mind is able to hold back. More than every laugh that has ever left a persons lips, more than every smile that has ever found its place on a persons face. More than every inch of land, more than every gallon of water that is on this earth.

More than every house or building that has ever been built. More than all the dreams and nightmares that everyone has ever had. More than all of the lines and every picture that has ever been drawn with those lines, whether straight or curved.

More than all of the tears that have ever left my eyes.

More than all of the text messages that I have ever sent or received, and more than all of the phone calls I have ever dialed or received. More than the internet itself. More than all of the years that this planet has existed for. More than all of the dinosaurs that you can possibly think of. More than any other girl has ever loved you. More than anyone ever will.

My heart beats for two.

2011-04-11T12:38:00.000-07:00

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl, it beats for two.
Because I got your love and I got these vices.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

~ he's more than a boy , he's my future... Is he?
~-In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

When you start to miss me, remember you let me go.

2011-04-11T09:09:00.000-07:00

There are one million people on the earth
There are thousand people I know

There are hundred people I like

There are ten people I fight for

And there is one persone where

I would give my life for and that person is you.

By the way

I want to say

Before you go

I love you so

Wherever we are

Wathever we do

Remember this:

I always love you

No matter what

I'm always on your side

Live your Life

2011-04-10T12:43:00.000-07:00

Eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw a picture with crayons like you're still 6 years old and then give it to someone who is very important to you, take a nap, go on vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take a bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke, get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make a ugly shirt and wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you wouldn't usually go for, make a scrap book, go on a picnic relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the un-kissed, hug the un-hugged, love the un-loved, and live your life to the fullest.

Awake and Alive

2011-04-10T11:51:00.000-07:00

They say it doesn't hurt, that moment right before you die, they say you don't feel the pain. In fact you don't feel much. It's the moment where you've accepted that it's over, when you know that you have only a few seconds left to live. That's the moment where you realise you're dying and you've made your peace with it. You're compeletely empty, but it's okay, because soon it'll all be good. THat is how I feel right now. I know I've lost and it's my own fault. but it doesn't really matter because even though it's over, it's not done. I truly believe everything is going to be okay in the end, and if it's not okay, it's not the end.

I'm not the kind of girl who laughs to hide her pain. I may feel like shit right sometimes but I mean every smile from the bottom of my heart because there's more to life than what I've lived, and I hope to get there soon. As for now, I can say I'm happy. Sure there's pain and I'm not at all over this, but the feeling of peace is de strongest one I've ever felt. Sad days come and go but at the end of the day I've got everything I could ever wish for; the feeling of being loved.

Shine like a star , before you lose the power